part time mum?

as part of my job i have to travel a lot

i do love travelling so you could look at this as a perk of the job

however although i often enjoy the places i get to go and visit

the fam aren’t as enthusiastic

i tend to only travel for 4-5 days max now

but there were a few occasions where it was significantly longer

last year i started bribing my oldest with promised of treats from the airport

(hangs head in shame)

the novelty of that has totally worn off for him now

my husband, aka the champ

rocks the solo parenting thing for the time i’m away

doesn’t moan

(he doesn’t jump for joy either)

and manages to get through it unscathed

and with both children in tact

but oh the mummy guilt is next level

it is part of my job

and i take my job seriously

so cant be flaky and only choose some trips and not others

however it has made me feel like a bit of a part time mum

as being a mum is another job i take seriously too

tomorrow i fly out – back in 5 nights

ki x




things i definitely will be doing on holiday

  • spending a max of 12 mins on a beach per visit : kids & husband hate beaches
  • carry around books i wont read  : i hate kindles before you all start
  • swimming every day : most cases while trying to save one child from drowning 
  • letting the kids stay up late : instantly regretting it the morning 
  • swimming in the sea : whilst listening to the fam moaning about being on the beach
  • having dinner later that 8pm : where the kids refuse to eat
  • having a conversation with my husband :  but about how the kids/mortgage/work
  • wearing packing summer prints : that i never wear
  • jumping in a pool when i get too hot – please can i keep this one?

ki x

all or nothing

in a recent conversation with my son’s teacher

she told me that

‘he can often avoid participating in task and activities if he thinks he either wont be able to do it first time, or he wont be the best’


that is 100% me

he inherited that from me

*hangs head in shame*

answers on a post card if you know how to undo that!

ki x


i just wanted to clear up something

i am not a health guru,

nor a fitness fanatic or a wellness goddess

but i am a fussy, controlling stress head

i know what i like and what i don’t like

so when i launched ‘the retreat’

it was never to claim those crowns

it was to create a space, curate an environment

focus on ‘health, wellness & happiness’

with the help & assistance of all the best goddesses, gurus and fanatics that i can lay my hands on

ki x

ps check out our Retreat page on the blog to see what we are planning in november



not zen

so in my pursuit of happiness

i have been proactively seeking ways to address the stress

i’ve read books

i’ve used apps

i’ve changed my diet

i’ve taken up hobbies

i’ve drunk

i’ve exercised

i’ve not drunk

i’ve attempted yoga (im appalling at this)

but i’m not there yet

is it possible i will never


be zen?

ki x

the juggle

i really enjoy being busy

but recently found myself feeling a tad anxious

most of the time i feel like i am a skilled juggler

and other times i feel like i’ve not only dropped a few balls

but i have no idea were they went, what they looked like

or how many balls i started off with

i’ve just taken on a few extra extra curricular activities

and had a wabble

im sure the ball i just dropped wasn’t important

but i cant be 100% sure

ki x

lets talk about love (island)

i’m totally glued to the tv and have been for the last week

i’m watching a bunch of scantily clad twenty somethings

attempt to woo each other

i love it

i have no idea why it is such addictive viewing

maybe it is watching the mating rituals up so close

maybe it is listening in on the will they or wont they conversations

or maybe it is the entertainment that comes from

watching a romance go from 0-100 in 24 hours

obviously peaking far too soon

sorry to put a dampener on things


something doesn’t sit that well with me

it is so sexy and staged

actually it is too sexy and too staged

and the initial matching up at the start of the series is so brutal!!

can you imagine being included in that process?!?

DISCLAIMER – i have watched every series and will continue to do so

but setting up situations that encourage feelings of jealousy and highlight insecurities

cant be a positive thing right?

would it be as addictive viewing if they didn’t do that? i’m not so sure

i watch it with my husband and we giggle about their antics

but if my daughter was older im not sure i would let her watch it

also i just heard one of them say

‘i’m in to older girls, because you know, i’m 31 so them being 25-26 is good’

jeeeeez louise – i’m old

ki x




pissy pants

we are about to be knee deep in pissy pants

bea has shown lots of signs she is ready to start potty training

but i’m not ready

as much as nappies are expensive

and nappy changing is often both time consuming and smelly

toilet trips and potty dashes are worse

its pretty difficult to ask a 2 year old to just hold it

you know, until we get to the next services

or until we get home

i cant actually remember many accidents when we were potty training Stan

so i did some research and as a result

today we invested in

  • 35x pairs on knickers – so we can throw the worst away!
  • 20x pairs of socks – as these will evidently get wet too!
  •  and finally 2x pairs of crocs  (apparently these are great as when they do get covered in wee you can disinfect them and wipe dry! who knew??)

so we are ready

well she is and i’m pretending i’m ready

ki x


a list of the (stupid) things i get stressed about part.2


  • when you wait in all day for a delivery and it never turns up
  • bad customer service
  • doing Stanley’s homework
  • being late
  • when i wear open toe shoes and it rains
  • the central line
  • finding nice clothes/shoes/jewellery but not in my size
  • lack of sleep
  • going shopping but forgetting to take bags
  • people who let their dogs poo outside my house and don’t pick it up
  • planning the kids birthday parties


ki x