counting down

so it has been intense 

and we are now on the edge

however the end is insight

im not saying some of it wasn’t fun

but im/we are done 

roll on the 4th sept 

when some normality returns to our life 

kids are not aware but 

they are screaming out for some routine

and so are we

before that happens 

we are off to spend 4x nights in a field 

im unsure if this is a move of pure genius 

or the most idiotic plan of the 5 weeks so far

we are on route

so far 

2x hours late leaving 

3x ‘disagreements’

1x time out 

4x emergency toilet trips 

1x mega tantrum regarding lego 

and we still have to tackle the tent 

pray for us & pass the pimms 

ki x

no more sunshine & cocktails

holiday-ing has changed 

dramatically 

gone are the days of lounging in the sun

sipping cocktails before midday

replaced with 

life guard duties

applying tons of sun cream 

intense nap negotiations 

acceptance is tough

but i have made peace with it 

sort of 

ki x

holiday happiness

so other than a dose of the post holiday blues 

we are back from our travels 

and all is well with the world* 

(*my bubble) 

im not gonna boast 

that i have cracked the code

or tapped in to the secret of life 

or sussed the formula to happiness

but 

turns out this family response bloody well to 

travel

sunshine

no work

& blue skies

it wasn’t all smiles & happiness

but i will save that for another time 

ki x

sleeping beauty

my husband can stay awake until the early hours

if

it is to watch a ufc fight

but

he cant keep his eyes open after 9pm

if

i am the only source of entertainment

that kinda makes me feel a bit bad

but i often give him the benefit of the doubt

but what gets my goat

is when i say to him

‘hey you are obviously tired go get your beauty sleep’

he protests and stays up

yet falls asleep as i am literally half way through a sentence

ki x

ps this obviously leaves me angry, confused and frustrated

pps yet he has been doing it for 13 years

education maze

throughout the last academic school year

i have been in a permanent state of anxiety

my son – who is usually a good kid

was having letters home

being kept in at break

and we have also had a call from the teacher

my first thought was

‘we must have messed up somewhere’

like we somehow broke the good boy we once had

i started to look at him for answers & explanations

however with 3 days until the end of term

the penny has dropped

turns out

his teacher was a bit sh!te

we lucked out previously with supportive and adequate teachers

however for whatever reason

this one is not able to cut it

and for those rolling their eyes

thinking i could potentially be deluded

i am one of 5 mums feeling exactly the same way

about the same teacher

so we draw a line under this on wednesday

and pray we luck out on the next one

stress on this matter is currently paused

ki x

just cant help it

anyone else had a sucky day?

mine has been the worst

i cant put my finger in why or what has rattled my cage

i have been so horrible to people

(mainly my poor poor husband)

i snapped at him because he sneezed

i ignored texts from friend

rolled my eyes at my mothers comments

and avoided eye contact with the post man

it is like i am having an out of body experience

i can see myself being a b!tch

and im shouting

‘stop it, dont be mean, thats uncalled for!’

yet i just cant stop it

ki xx

edit – it is the a full sodding moon

yes

i’m blaming the moon

thats my story

and i’m sticking to it

 

 

 

part time mum?

as part of my job i have to travel a lot

i do love travelling so you could look at this as a perk of the job

however although i often enjoy the places i get to go and visit

the fam aren’t as enthusiastic

i tend to only travel for 4-5 days max now

but there were a few occasions where it was significantly longer

last year i started bribing my oldest with promised of treats from the airport

(hangs head in shame)

the novelty of that has totally worn off for him now

my husband, aka the champ

rocks the solo parenting thing for the time i’m away

doesn’t moan

(he doesn’t jump for joy either)

and manages to get through it unscathed

and with both children in tact

but oh the mummy guilt is next level

it is part of my job

and i take my job seriously

so cant be flaky and only choose some trips and not others

however it has made me feel like a bit of a part time mum

as being a mum is another job i take seriously too

tomorrow i fly out – back in 5 nights

ki x

 

 

 

things i definitely will be doing on holiday

  • spending a max of 12 mins on a beach per visit : kids & husband hate beaches
  • carry around books i wont read  : i hate kindles before you all start
  • swimming every day : most cases while trying to save one child from drowning 
  • letting the kids stay up late : instantly regretting it the morning 
  • swimming in the sea : whilst listening to the fam moaning about being on the beach
  • having dinner later that 8pm : where the kids refuse to eat
  • having a conversation with my husband :  but about how the kids/mortgage/work
  • wearing packing summer prints : that i never wear
  • jumping in a pool when i get too hot – please can i keep this one?

ki x